Harsh. But true.
So…i these days i:
- got offered to be paid a taxi to reach a fuckboy
- found an unwanted dickpick in my DM, sent by a total stranger who told me “i love you”
What else? I know im forgetting something…..
- oh yeah! The tinder guy that said “i am looking for fun in order to have a long lasting relationship”.
I am staring from this cos is way too hilarious!!! Men really DO think women are dumb, my god! My answer was: “ehmm…i tell u a secret: avoid telling girls you are looking for fun leading for a relationship, that’s a big bullshit and we aint that stupid”. Apparently this was enough to bring him on the straight way, starting being real.
Eventually we also started chatting and having a good conversation.
Let’s switch to the dickpick guy, he’s a random guy who started texting me in Instagram, eventually the only words he knows where “babe, send me a pic, i love you, send me a pic….” and so on. I tried to have a real conversation with him, but I gave up after, as i said, i got the dickpick. I blocked him…pity, he was hot af….but no thanks. Brainless m-itch XD
- Answer to this: why the fuck you guys are so dumb? I mean, just be real, you have more chances having a good fuck with an interesting person rather than with a hopeless (possibly underage) bitch….But nope….lets act dumb. Why???
Let’s switch to the “fuckboy”. The Man. The one i unfortunately fell for, but with whom i would never have a relationship.
There are some limits to put. Its ok to have fun, till u respect the other person. Texting at 8pm asking me to come to your place, and telling me “i would pay for the taxi” it’s a NO-NO. I aint your bitch, first. And i aint a second wheel.
Cmon…If u text me at the last moment, my first thought is: “the other bitch dumped him”. Man go and look for another fool. So i texted him, telling him my thought about this behavior, and he, obviously, ghosted. I haven’t been crazy, just very quietly told him that i don’t like that cos it is disrespectful.
Now…i would never have done this some months ago. Simply because when we are together he is sweet and shows emotion and…cmon i see his eyes, i know there’s something. But he don’t wanna give more than that…so, as i had nothing but him, i wasn’t really standing for myself. My thought was: “what if i tell him this and this, an then he ghosts? Who will give me those little things?”
The issue here is that those things are LITTLE. Is not what i want. Is not what i deserve. I was just trying to make myself complete with an uncompleted situation. I still love him. Obviously. But now, i am no more afraid to lose him.
A good friend told me: in the moment you say yes, but you wish it is a no, that is the point you gotta cut it. And the same applies with sharing thoughts. The moment you wont say something, because you are afraid to lose someone, is the point you have to cut it.
We must feel free to act and say what we really want. So, my dear, even if a love you, i am done. When and if you will be back to me, you will see a new Chris. I am not here to kneel over people. I am not here to be tamed nor to be disrespected.
I am here for an higher purpose, and it is time to start.